Being a Step-Mommy/Mommy is Such a Blessing

            There are so many blessings in this world and in my life and I am about to experience another one. I am pregnant with Aaron and I’s first child together. I am almost 16 weeks and I have had a pretty easy first trimester.  I had heard all the horror stories of being pregnant but so far so good. We had not planned on getting pregnant so early but we did and we are very excited.

                                         This is Baby Blackwell at 10 almost 11 weeks...

Aaron and most of his family are hoping for a little boy. Grace is hoping for a little girl. She says she has too many brothers at her mom’s house and she would love to have a baby sister. Although she says that the other day she was talking with her Grandma Diane and her grandma was asking her what she wanted the baby to be. Grace’s response was that it is God’s will and whatever God wants to bless our family with. I am so proud of my little Grace. She is growing so much in her faith and it is so beautiful to be able to share this with her. I know she is going to be a great example for her brother or sister to look up to. I know the baby as it gets older will be able to go to Grace and Grace will be able to help the baby out. We have such a beautiful family. I have such a beautiful daughter and I have been very blessed to have her in my life.

In the bible it says in Psalms 127:3 Behold, children are a heritage from the Lord, the fruit of the womb a reward. I am grateful and so very thankful to be blessed with a child of my own.  I know a few of my friends right now who have been working on getting pregnant with their loved ones. I pray each day that they are able to. I know whether or not they are able to bare kids they will be blessed by the Lord with a child one way or the other.

Before I was pregnant I did not think I wanted to ever bring a child into this world. Everything that I have had to go through growing up and what I have seen around me I thought would not be okay for a child to go through. So I did not want to be responsible for doing that to an innocent child. At this time I was not where I am now in my walk with Christ and I had also been told it would be really difficult for to have children of my own because of some medical issues that had come up about 5 years ago. Now that I am seeing the gospel in a different light and seeing the struggles that I once went through and how they have Glorified God I am okay and excited to bring a child to experience the relationship with Jesus.  Before I was planning my life out and now I have realized I am not in control of my life. God’s plan is far better than the one I could come up with for my life. God has not done a crappy job yet. So I think I will continue to trust Him. Well that is all for now. I will keep everyone posted.